hollowness

being a student is better than working, but it does seem more overwhelming at times...like the last 2 weeks.

midterms are over...

this time around, i spent a lot of time dwelling on how badly i would do and very little time doing something about that, i.e. studying...and then something horrible happened

and i realized...as i should've all along, that it really didn't matter if i failed every midterm.

they are insignificant

yeeeeeeeah, i want to pass, and yeeeeeeeah, it will make the difference in a lot of scholarship money, and the plans i have over the next 50 years, haha, but pass or fail, it's not gonna change me



at least in my mind...my afflicted, affected, erratic, idiosyncratic, melodramatic mind, things are not going to change over a mother-effin' finance midterm.

i'll just go punch a tree, feel better, and continue on...