cc..l..

i'm tired of givin' in. last night, i broke the bathroom door. the next day i fell down. hit my head on the floor. then the world went gray...stayed that way for most of the day...tired of falling down...tired of this imaginary dot that follows me around...tired of bein' stared at. tired of not usin' drugs. tired of this fucking headache. tired of not saying what i want to say. tired of no one understanding what i say when i say it anyway. tired of being told what to do. tired of no one around worth talking to. tired of not being a millionaire. tired of concrete walls and friends that don't care...tired of being distracted and not being able to hold still. tired of eating pork everyday and every meal. tired of screamin and cryin'. tired of fuckin' friends..who say they're your friends but the lyin' never ends. tired of not knowing what i need to know. tired of forgetting what you told me 5 minutes ago.